Well, once again it's been a while since I wrote a blog entry and A LOT has changed since my last one.
Well, single again... twice removed since the last blog... but whatever, life goes on I guess.
The purpose of this blog however is to kind of highlight chasing your dreams and inspire to chase your dreams... I have gotten away from that premise somewhat in my last few entries so I may just give insight and try to reflect on lessons learned in this one.
I've been through a few relationships recently, and with each one, I try to reflect afterwards on what I learned with each one.
Well, relationship #1- that one taught me how to love and taught me some important lessons on how a serious relationship works... it was my first true serious relationship so I was sorta rusty and honestly had no clue what I was doing.. which pretty much was the downfall... I'm not putting the blame all on myself, but I won't get into the rest.
Relationship #2- that one taught me how to be somewhat more chill towards a relationship, not get hung up on the title itself, and just enjoy the person's company... we were more friends than lovers, so that's the basic end to that one.
Relationship #3- I think I learned more in that one than anyone of them. I've never proven to be a patient person at all or at times very understanding, I'll admit that...
Anyways, boyfriend #3 had a son which I had never experienced before in a relationship and he was my first boyfriend I had that didn't live down the street... he lived over 3 hours away.
Before #3, I always said I would never date a guy with a kid, etc., but his son touched my heart and those times with them I'll never forget because as those minutes passed, I learned that it's important to embrace every situation and not judge someone's situation so quickly.
I also learned some patience in that relationship. I used to be the type that had to spend every waking minute with a boyfriend, but I got over that with #3 because obviously we couldn't see each other all the time.
I'm still working on taking what I learned from all three and becoming a stronger person for it and hopefully someday a better girlfriend because of all of those experiences.
I feel I've came out of all three more accepting of others at least... kind of bitter because of three failed relationships so quickly, but that's a day by day process to lose the bitterness.
I guess the point I'm trying to make with this blog is this.... relationships come and go, and it freaking sucks, but the time spent with each person, you will never want to trade because it allowed you to experience different things and gain another perspective.... and life is all about broadening your perspective and understanding, right?
Wednesday, May 22, 2013
Wednesday, November 28, 2012
Keep it coming, God
Well, well, well... God has blessed me with something (someone) once again... and his name is Mark. :)
To be honest, I didn't really see this coming at all! Granted I was the one to text him first, but I never imagined things would develop as quickly as they have!
I worked with Mark at the newspaper, but when I met him, I was in a relationship at the time and even after my breakup, I was totally against the whole work flirting stuff; therefore, it was total friend zone.
And actually, as I've told him, I thought that's where it was going to stay... but God had plans otherwise I believe.
I don't mean to break down the entire story, but sometimes it's nice to reflect back on how things came about to really see where God was simply putting the pieces together.
So since I don't work at the newspaper anymore, I hadn't seen Mark in a while ... until I saw him again at the fall Martinsville Speedway race. We talked, laughed, caught up, whatever... we didn't think much about it.
But after that day, we hung out as a group and I got to know him a little more... and seeing his personality, I started remembering things that I learned about him before like that he was raised a Baptist (as had I), has conservative views (as do I) and other things that really stood out to me.
As I remembered those things, I thought, you know maybe this guy is at least worth getting to know... what do I have to lose, right?!
In the time that I was getting to know him, I really didn't think much about it, and didn't really think I was looking for another relationship... but the more we talked, and the more we hung out, and the more we just connected on a spiritual and personal level ... my thoughts changed.
He is such a great guy and the best part is that we are trying to develop a relationship where the foundation is God.
We try to pray together and go to church together... and we hope to keep that up.
I've never really had a relationship where God was placed first ... and I've always been told all my life that those kinds of relationships are the ones that God will bless the most... so we shall see.
I feel like God has placed Mark into my life for many reasons... and one of those reasons could be that God sees that we could possibly walk closer to Him by having each other.
I don't know what God has in store for this relationship and I'm not trying to read much into it... but all I can say is "Thank You, God ... Keep it coming." :)
To be honest, I didn't really see this coming at all! Granted I was the one to text him first, but I never imagined things would develop as quickly as they have!
I worked with Mark at the newspaper, but when I met him, I was in a relationship at the time and even after my breakup, I was totally against the whole work flirting stuff; therefore, it was total friend zone.
And actually, as I've told him, I thought that's where it was going to stay... but God had plans otherwise I believe.
I don't mean to break down the entire story, but sometimes it's nice to reflect back on how things came about to really see where God was simply putting the pieces together.
So since I don't work at the newspaper anymore, I hadn't seen Mark in a while ... until I saw him again at the fall Martinsville Speedway race. We talked, laughed, caught up, whatever... we didn't think much about it.
But after that day, we hung out as a group and I got to know him a little more... and seeing his personality, I started remembering things that I learned about him before like that he was raised a Baptist (as had I), has conservative views (as do I) and other things that really stood out to me.
As I remembered those things, I thought, you know maybe this guy is at least worth getting to know... what do I have to lose, right?!
In the time that I was getting to know him, I really didn't think much about it, and didn't really think I was looking for another relationship... but the more we talked, and the more we hung out, and the more we just connected on a spiritual and personal level ... my thoughts changed.
He is such a great guy and the best part is that we are trying to develop a relationship where the foundation is God.
We try to pray together and go to church together... and we hope to keep that up.
I've never really had a relationship where God was placed first ... and I've always been told all my life that those kinds of relationships are the ones that God will bless the most... so we shall see.
I feel like God has placed Mark into my life for many reasons... and one of those reasons could be that God sees that we could possibly walk closer to Him by having each other.
I don't know what God has in store for this relationship and I'm not trying to read much into it... but all I can say is "Thank You, God ... Keep it coming." :)
Thursday, November 8, 2012
Never count yourself out
I want to get deep for a moment...
There have been times in my life recently where I just felt like giving up completely; I was so down all the time and nothing helped. But then there came that point in life where I realized "my life is wasting away while I'm sitting here freaking crying... and over what?!"
I've been blessed with a lot in my life... great job, great family, great friends, just a great life...
In the past few weeks, I had this realization of "my gosh, I gotta get a grip and start getting out more!"... since I got to that point, it's like a weight has been lifted!
I wouldn't trade the heartaches for anything because I'm starting to see already how much I have grown.... one realization came lastnight when I was told that I come across as a very independent person... major difference from being called "spoiled"... cough cough haha.
By hearing that, it clicked something in my brain.. that hey maybe the breakup and multiple pity parties have done me some good... because I reached such a low depressed point that I told myself I had to be my own person before I could ever be truly happy.
I'm proud to say that maybe I have finally gotten to that point! Hallelujah!!
Another lesson: God has always got my back. There were times when I did the whole "God, why why why?!" thing, but now I see that God simply was like "girl, you need to go through this because you're relying too much on others to make you happy."
And hopefully, God is now looking down saying "atta girl." :)
There have been times in my life recently where I just felt like giving up completely; I was so down all the time and nothing helped. But then there came that point in life where I realized "my life is wasting away while I'm sitting here freaking crying... and over what?!"
I've been blessed with a lot in my life... great job, great family, great friends, just a great life...
In the past few weeks, I had this realization of "my gosh, I gotta get a grip and start getting out more!"... since I got to that point, it's like a weight has been lifted!
I wouldn't trade the heartaches for anything because I'm starting to see already how much I have grown.... one realization came lastnight when I was told that I come across as a very independent person... major difference from being called "spoiled"... cough cough haha.
By hearing that, it clicked something in my brain.. that hey maybe the breakup and multiple pity parties have done me some good... because I reached such a low depressed point that I told myself I had to be my own person before I could ever be truly happy.
I'm proud to say that maybe I have finally gotten to that point! Hallelujah!!
Another lesson: God has always got my back. There were times when I did the whole "God, why why why?!" thing, but now I see that God simply was like "girl, you need to go through this because you're relying too much on others to make you happy."
And hopefully, God is now looking down saying "atta girl." :)
Friday, November 2, 2012
It's been a while...
Well it has certainly been a while since I updated my blog... and boy has my life changed since that last post....
Since my last post, I have experienced my first true breakup... was not easy, but I think I'm finally coming to grips with it.. even though it has been a few months...
Now, I'm starting to see that the breakup was needed because since then, so many things have opened up in my life and so many good changes have come about.
God has a plan for me and I truly believe that...
Since the breakup, I have found a new job as an admissions counselor at the college I graduated from! The job obviously pays more and also gives me the chance to help others succeed in their dream to attend college and better themselves... and that means so much to me to be able to that.
In every job I do, I want to make an impact on someone's life. This job I feel will help me to impact more people's lives. Working in newspaper, I never felt like I was making a difference and helping others and I dreamed of having a job that would allow me to do so ... and now I have it!
Also in the last few months, I have gotten my own place.. which has helped me to appreciate all the little things that my mom had to do on a daily basis.. because now I'm having to do everything for myself! And doing things for myself is sooo rewarding too!
I'm only 21 years old and I feel that I have positioned myself well in life.. and the feeling of "having made it" is so fulfilling. Granted no one is ever truly happy, but that is the mystery in life and the drive in life, is to keep chugging along until you at least get to the point where you're temporarily satisfied.
In the past few months, I have realized that things can't always go my way, especially when it involves someone else. And that is the true realization is that things that I can control in my life and that are in my hands, it goes my way.
Like with my new job, granted I couldn't control whether I got the job or not, but I could control the impression I left to ensure that they could possibly look at me as a potential employee.
Relationships are out of my control... and that's the one thing I struggle with.
I could blame myself for the downfall or whatever, but I'm not going to... because the bottom line is that it's something I can't control... the things I can control, I'm good at succeeding in them, so stick to that!
Since my last post, I have experienced my first true breakup... was not easy, but I think I'm finally coming to grips with it.. even though it has been a few months...
Now, I'm starting to see that the breakup was needed because since then, so many things have opened up in my life and so many good changes have come about.
God has a plan for me and I truly believe that...
Since the breakup, I have found a new job as an admissions counselor at the college I graduated from! The job obviously pays more and also gives me the chance to help others succeed in their dream to attend college and better themselves... and that means so much to me to be able to that.
In every job I do, I want to make an impact on someone's life. This job I feel will help me to impact more people's lives. Working in newspaper, I never felt like I was making a difference and helping others and I dreamed of having a job that would allow me to do so ... and now I have it!
Also in the last few months, I have gotten my own place.. which has helped me to appreciate all the little things that my mom had to do on a daily basis.. because now I'm having to do everything for myself! And doing things for myself is sooo rewarding too!
I'm only 21 years old and I feel that I have positioned myself well in life.. and the feeling of "having made it" is so fulfilling. Granted no one is ever truly happy, but that is the mystery in life and the drive in life, is to keep chugging along until you at least get to the point where you're temporarily satisfied.
In the past few months, I have realized that things can't always go my way, especially when it involves someone else. And that is the true realization is that things that I can control in my life and that are in my hands, it goes my way.
Like with my new job, granted I couldn't control whether I got the job or not, but I could control the impression I left to ensure that they could possibly look at me as a potential employee.
Relationships are out of my control... and that's the one thing I struggle with.
I could blame myself for the downfall or whatever, but I'm not going to... because the bottom line is that it's something I can't control... the things I can control, I'm good at succeeding in them, so stick to that!
Monday, May 14, 2012
Dreams do come true ... with hard work
Some more dreams have come true in my life!!! On Tuesday, I will be leaving for Hawaii to visit my cousins who live in Maui! Last Saturday, I bought a 29-foot camper!
Growing up, I always dreamed of having a camper some day and that day has finally come because I have worked hard enough to be able to afford one all on my own! --- the same goes for the trip to Hawaii as well.
My parents tried to talk me out of buying the camper because they said that I was too young to buy something like that. But the way I look at it is that... I'm at the best years of my life and why not spend money on something that will make those years even more fulfilling??
Over the past few years, I have lost many family members, which has made me realize that no matter what age you are, you have got to live life to the fullest and not let anything hold you back.
With everything I do, I feel like I am living the life that God has given me. Every day, I thank God for everything I have --- wonderful boyfriend, wonderful family, amazing friends, great job and good health.
Growing up, I always dreamed of having a camper some day and that day has finally come because I have worked hard enough to be able to afford one all on my own! --- the same goes for the trip to Hawaii as well.
My parents tried to talk me out of buying the camper because they said that I was too young to buy something like that. But the way I look at it is that... I'm at the best years of my life and why not spend money on something that will make those years even more fulfilling??
Over the past few years, I have lost many family members, which has made me realize that no matter what age you are, you have got to live life to the fullest and not let anything hold you back.
With everything I do, I feel like I am living the life that God has given me. Every day, I thank God for everything I have --- wonderful boyfriend, wonderful family, amazing friends, great job and good health.
Monday, March 19, 2012
Lucky lucky girl
The hype over St. Patrick's Day has me thinking about how truly lucky I am.
By the way, I did find a four leaf clover about 10 years ago soooo maybe the legends are true? :p
... so why do I feel so lucky?
Well first of all, I have a great family who supports me in everything I do and I can always tell how much they truly care. And now I am getting more and more close to Dave and his family, which makes me so happy.
I met more of Dave's family yesterday and I truly felt that I belonged there. I felt so relaxed and that I fit right in. Me and Dave have now been together about 4 months, which doesn't seem like a long time, but it didn't take long for us to fall crazy in love with each other. (we both have promise rings that we sport to show our commitment to each other)
Since Dave came into my life, I really feel that I focus more on what's most important in life: family, friends, God and love.
Another reason I'm lucky is that I have several TRUE friends. Many people can't say that they have several friends that would be there for them at any time, but I can say that. They are all so unique and I'm so grateful to have them. (you know who you are :p)
I'm also lucky because a career in songwriting is now a possibility! I signed a contract last month to start writing exclusively for an up-and-coming artist in Nashville.
The recording is supposed to begin in the next few months and I'm so excited to hear my songs professionally produced! And the idea of royalty checks sounds pretty exciting too!
I just feel soooo lucky to have all that i do! I really don't want my luck to fade.... so that it won't, I will just keep thanking God for how he has blessed me and pray that he will continue to do so. :)
By the way, I did find a four leaf clover about 10 years ago soooo maybe the legends are true? :p
... so why do I feel so lucky?
Well first of all, I have a great family who supports me in everything I do and I can always tell how much they truly care. And now I am getting more and more close to Dave and his family, which makes me so happy.
I met more of Dave's family yesterday and I truly felt that I belonged there. I felt so relaxed and that I fit right in. Me and Dave have now been together about 4 months, which doesn't seem like a long time, but it didn't take long for us to fall crazy in love with each other. (we both have promise rings that we sport to show our commitment to each other)
Since Dave came into my life, I really feel that I focus more on what's most important in life: family, friends, God and love.
Another reason I'm lucky is that I have several TRUE friends. Many people can't say that they have several friends that would be there for them at any time, but I can say that. They are all so unique and I'm so grateful to have them. (you know who you are :p)
I'm also lucky because a career in songwriting is now a possibility! I signed a contract last month to start writing exclusively for an up-and-coming artist in Nashville.
The recording is supposed to begin in the next few months and I'm so excited to hear my songs professionally produced! And the idea of royalty checks sounds pretty exciting too!
I just feel soooo lucky to have all that i do! I really don't want my luck to fade.... so that it won't, I will just keep thanking God for how he has blessed me and pray that he will continue to do so. :)
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Best Christmas
Gosh, life is so great! And dreams just keep coming true!
Last week, Dave sent a dozen roses to my work, which surprised me so much! Also, we spent our first Christmas together which was amazing!
Part of my family met him on Thanksgiving and the other half met him on Christmas ... and they all love him!
I've just really been thinking lately about how everything I've ever dreamed of is coming true. I've always dreamed of having a boyfriend that my family and dad would be proud to know... and that's Dave.
My blogs are usually about how I pursued something and a dream came true, but all of this is just happening on its own.
Even petty dreams come true like Dave playing my grandpa in checkers and my grandpa giving Dave a big hug... it just makes me tear up remembering those moments.
I just can't get over how much God has blessed me.. I'm so grateful!
Some people have told me that it's not fair how I get everything I want... well, it hasn't been by people handing things to me, I've worked hard for everything I've accomplished in my life..... but in this relationship, I can't take any of the credit, it's just all worked out by the Grace of God.
Part of me believes that things work out in my life because I have always believed that anything is possible... and with faith, it is possible.
I've always felt that God has my back and will grant me what I want.... I don't plan on ever losing faith in my Savior because he is doing a great job. :)
Last week, Dave sent a dozen roses to my work, which surprised me so much! Also, we spent our first Christmas together which was amazing!
Part of my family met him on Thanksgiving and the other half met him on Christmas ... and they all love him!
I've just really been thinking lately about how everything I've ever dreamed of is coming true. I've always dreamed of having a boyfriend that my family and dad would be proud to know... and that's Dave.
My blogs are usually about how I pursued something and a dream came true, but all of this is just happening on its own.
Even petty dreams come true like Dave playing my grandpa in checkers and my grandpa giving Dave a big hug... it just makes me tear up remembering those moments.
I just can't get over how much God has blessed me.. I'm so grateful!
Some people have told me that it's not fair how I get everything I want... well, it hasn't been by people handing things to me, I've worked hard for everything I've accomplished in my life..... but in this relationship, I can't take any of the credit, it's just all worked out by the Grace of God.
Part of me believes that things work out in my life because I have always believed that anything is possible... and with faith, it is possible.
I've always felt that God has my back and will grant me what I want.... I don't plan on ever losing faith in my Savior because he is doing a great job. :)
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Fairytales do exist
Well, well, well... I am a happy girl! Dave and I are officially dating as of today!!
I never thought I'd find someone that just understands me and cares about me as much as he does... it's so amazing.
I prayed for a long time that I'd find a good guy that would treat me right and I stayed frustrated for a long time because I hadn't found that guy..... well, I see now that God still does answer prayers. :)
All of this has given me a new hope on life... my faith is stronger, I feel closer to my friends and my family... I just feel like I now have everything that I've ever wanted.
Now I know not to get too caught up because wonderful things don't always last, but I'm also not the type of person who doesn't embrace a great moment. This is a great moment in my life and I want to really enjoy it.
He is a breath of fresh air for me and I'm so blessed to have him.
The title of my blog is "Chase Your Dreams" and I have always chased my dreams and pursued anything I've ever wanted.... but with relationships, you can't really chase that, it just happens by the grace of God I believe.
Well, God has shown his grace on me with Dave and I will thank God for that every day. :)
I never thought I'd find someone that just understands me and cares about me as much as he does... it's so amazing.
I prayed for a long time that I'd find a good guy that would treat me right and I stayed frustrated for a long time because I hadn't found that guy..... well, I see now that God still does answer prayers. :)
All of this has given me a new hope on life... my faith is stronger, I feel closer to my friends and my family... I just feel like I now have everything that I've ever wanted.
Now I know not to get too caught up because wonderful things don't always last, but I'm also not the type of person who doesn't embrace a great moment. This is a great moment in my life and I want to really enjoy it.
He is a breath of fresh air for me and I'm so blessed to have him.
The title of my blog is "Chase Your Dreams" and I have always chased my dreams and pursued anything I've ever wanted.... but with relationships, you can't really chase that, it just happens by the grace of God I believe.
Well, God has shown his grace on me with Dave and I will thank God for that every day. :)
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Almost was the one that got away
Well, I usually post about my ambitions and my dreams, but occasionally I do post about my love life... well, here's the update!
.... I think I may have finally got it right this time!!
I have been through a lot dealing with guys who didn't have my best interests at heart, but now things are different... this guy cares about what I have to say and appreciates my talents and my character.... goshhh, what a concept?!
We are not officially dating, but things are looking pretty hopeful... but I say that a lot and then it blows up in my face so I don't want to JINX it!
We have hung out several times already and we have been on two pretty official dates.. one date was dinner and a movie and the other was to a swanky restaurant/winery in the mountains!
He has been interested in me and has tried talking to me since January, but I never gave him a chance because I was hung up on losers. I can't believe I almost let him get away, but like he has told me... everything has happened for a reason and the timing was just not right then. :)
I haven't been this happy in a very long time and I haven't felt this comfortable around a guy in a very long time! AND the main thing is that I finally feel like I'm being my true self around him! It's so great!
Hopefully this one turns out better than my past "endeavors"! :)
God has blessed me in sooo many ways... with musical talent, with the ability and opportunity to write for the newspaper, and now with a great guy!
I'm learning more and more about this thing called life... and so far, I don't think it's such a bad thing. :)
.... I think I may have finally got it right this time!!
I have been through a lot dealing with guys who didn't have my best interests at heart, but now things are different... this guy cares about what I have to say and appreciates my talents and my character.... goshhh, what a concept?!
We are not officially dating, but things are looking pretty hopeful... but I say that a lot and then it blows up in my face so I don't want to JINX it!
We have hung out several times already and we have been on two pretty official dates.. one date was dinner and a movie and the other was to a swanky restaurant/winery in the mountains!
He has been interested in me and has tried talking to me since January, but I never gave him a chance because I was hung up on losers. I can't believe I almost let him get away, but like he has told me... everything has happened for a reason and the timing was just not right then. :)
I haven't been this happy in a very long time and I haven't felt this comfortable around a guy in a very long time! AND the main thing is that I finally feel like I'm being my true self around him! It's so great!
Hopefully this one turns out better than my past "endeavors"! :)
God has blessed me in sooo many ways... with musical talent, with the ability and opportunity to write for the newspaper, and now with a great guy!
I'm learning more and more about this thing called life... and so far, I don't think it's such a bad thing. :)
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
I keep pushing, I keep trying
Well, a lot has happened since my last blog post as far as my dreams are concerned!
I recently got a break on my music "career" and some of my original songs may soon be getting published!
I mailed 11 of my songs to Nashville last week in order for them to run through the court system and be copyrighted... once copyrighted, they will be able to then be sent to record labels who will then decide if they want any of their artists to record them!
I have one record label who may be interested in recording at least one of my songs, which is soooo exciting!
When all of this started coming about a few weeks ago, I couldn't have been happier! I actually have taken a break from performing right now due to other obligations during the week, but music is still my ultimate passion.
I am still working at the newspaper, which I do enjoy, and I'm working on advancing my music career at the same time. It has always been a dream of mine to be a songwriter. I love singing and performing, but the money is in songwriting and I love putting words to paper.
If I could still write for the newspaper and get paid to write songs on the side, that would be awesome!! With all of the compliments I get on my newspaper writing and the response that I get on the lyrical content of my songs, it makes me really realize that God has blessed me with the ability to write and also put emotion into words.
My original songs mean the world to me because I wrote them all at turning points or low points in my life.... when people that know me read my songs, they always remember the situation that I am speaking of in the song which is great because then I know that my message was correctly expressed....
I love writing and I also want to have an impact on people's lives and I feel that some of my songs could very well do that.... so I'm hoping and praying that my songs some day make it to the radio!!
God has blessed me and I am starting to see my direction... :)
I recently got a break on my music "career" and some of my original songs may soon be getting published!
I mailed 11 of my songs to Nashville last week in order for them to run through the court system and be copyrighted... once copyrighted, they will be able to then be sent to record labels who will then decide if they want any of their artists to record them!
I have one record label who may be interested in recording at least one of my songs, which is soooo exciting!
When all of this started coming about a few weeks ago, I couldn't have been happier! I actually have taken a break from performing right now due to other obligations during the week, but music is still my ultimate passion.
I am still working at the newspaper, which I do enjoy, and I'm working on advancing my music career at the same time. It has always been a dream of mine to be a songwriter. I love singing and performing, but the money is in songwriting and I love putting words to paper.
If I could still write for the newspaper and get paid to write songs on the side, that would be awesome!! With all of the compliments I get on my newspaper writing and the response that I get on the lyrical content of my songs, it makes me really realize that God has blessed me with the ability to write and also put emotion into words.
My original songs mean the world to me because I wrote them all at turning points or low points in my life.... when people that know me read my songs, they always remember the situation that I am speaking of in the song which is great because then I know that my message was correctly expressed....
I love writing and I also want to have an impact on people's lives and I feel that some of my songs could very well do that.... so I'm hoping and praying that my songs some day make it to the radio!!
God has blessed me and I am starting to see my direction... :)
Friday, September 2, 2011
God-given talents
Yesterday, as I was driving down the road, I was reflecting on how far I've come with my music.
Several years ago, I wouldn't sing in front of anybody, then in high school, I finally got to where I would sing in front of my friends in private.
Then two years ago, during my first year at Averett, the Christian Students Union (CSU) was hosting a talent show and everyone kept telling me that I should sign up. I hesitated at first, then I finally signed up.
It was going to be my first public debut so I was a little nervous! I had some of my closest friends come to support me which meant a lot!
Not many people were there in attendance but I still considered it my debut. I sang "American Honey" by Lady Antebellum. I was going to sing the song with my guitar but I wasn't comfortable with my guitar skills at that moment.
I sang the song and I received a good response and won the talent show (granted only 3 people performed.. but I still won lol).
I was so excited that I finally had bit the bullet and performed "live."
Another aspect of this story is my guitar playing. Like I mentioned, I was scared to play my guitar in public because I felt that I wasn't good enough at it because I had only been playing since March 2009.
The night that brought both my singing and guitar playing out of the box was when I first participated in an open mic at Buffalo Wild Wings in Danville in February or March 2011 (I can't remember).
That open mic was a success and my guitar playing was decent and my singing was on point I thought.
Since I gained that confidence that night, I have been playing at open mics ever since!
Lastnight's open mic at Kick Back Jacks in Danville (yes! new venue!), I had one of my best crowd reactions ever!
I sang "Anyway" by Martina McBride acapella and I dedicated it to the victims of Hurricane Irene.
I surprised myself when I hit every note perfectly and the crowd gave me a huge applause afterward.
People were coming up to me afterward and telling me how great I did on that song. It felt great!
I realize from all of this that God truly has blessed me with a musical talent and I want to continue spreading it! Especially when I dedicated that song, I felt that God was working through me to deliver the powerful message of that song. :)
Several years ago, I wouldn't sing in front of anybody, then in high school, I finally got to where I would sing in front of my friends in private.
Then two years ago, during my first year at Averett, the Christian Students Union (CSU) was hosting a talent show and everyone kept telling me that I should sign up. I hesitated at first, then I finally signed up.
It was going to be my first public debut so I was a little nervous! I had some of my closest friends come to support me which meant a lot!
Not many people were there in attendance but I still considered it my debut. I sang "American Honey" by Lady Antebellum. I was going to sing the song with my guitar but I wasn't comfortable with my guitar skills at that moment.
I sang the song and I received a good response and won the talent show (granted only 3 people performed.. but I still won lol).
I was so excited that I finally had bit the bullet and performed "live."
Another aspect of this story is my guitar playing. Like I mentioned, I was scared to play my guitar in public because I felt that I wasn't good enough at it because I had only been playing since March 2009.
The night that brought both my singing and guitar playing out of the box was when I first participated in an open mic at Buffalo Wild Wings in Danville in February or March 2011 (I can't remember).
That open mic was a success and my guitar playing was decent and my singing was on point I thought.
Since I gained that confidence that night, I have been playing at open mics ever since!
Lastnight's open mic at Kick Back Jacks in Danville (yes! new venue!), I had one of my best crowd reactions ever!
I sang "Anyway" by Martina McBride acapella and I dedicated it to the victims of Hurricane Irene.
I surprised myself when I hit every note perfectly and the crowd gave me a huge applause afterward.
People were coming up to me afterward and telling me how great I did on that song. It felt great!
I realize from all of this that God truly has blessed me with a musical talent and I want to continue spreading it! Especially when I dedicated that song, I felt that God was working through me to deliver the powerful message of that song. :)
Friday, August 26, 2011
Always Welcome
I went to visit my professors and friends on Monday at Averett and I felt so welcomed!
I miss being at Averett so much but it was great to know that they are supporting me in my new job and are cheering me along.
It showed me that no matter where you go in life, those who care, will always be there for you and will support you!
It also showed me that I truly made life-long friendships and connections during my time at Averett.
The whole day reminded me what my purpose is in life... making others smile. :)
I miss being at Averett so much but it was great to know that they are supporting me in my new job and are cheering me along.
It showed me that no matter where you go in life, those who care, will always be there for you and will support you!
It also showed me that I truly made life-long friendships and connections during my time at Averett.
The whole day reminded me what my purpose is in life... making others smile. :)
Friday, August 19, 2011
One thing that is hard to obtain
In my life, I have went for everything I have ever wanted and for the most part, I have succeeded.
However, there is one aspect in my life that I have yet to succeed in and that is.... my love life.
Strike after strike, I can't figure out the game... am I trying too hard? are all of the good guys taken?.... who knows?!?!
I try not to be bitter because I know that at this point in my life, I shouldn't be tied down with a relationship because I am looking to further my career to new milestones and new places. But it still would be nice to share my success with someone....
It's not that I can't get a guy to hit on me, but to get a guy to commit is like trying to find a needle in a haystack!
I have great friends and I have a great family, but where is my Prince Charming? where is my David Beckham or my Tim Tebow?
I'm sure he's out there..... but I'm tired of looking.
Life is a huge mystery and puzzle. Each day, I lose another piece and don't know how the puzzle will ever fit together.... I can do almost anything I set my mind to, but finding Mr. Right is something I just can't do. (sorry, Thomas the Tank Engine)
However, there is one aspect in my life that I have yet to succeed in and that is.... my love life.
Strike after strike, I can't figure out the game... am I trying too hard? are all of the good guys taken?.... who knows?!?!
I try not to be bitter because I know that at this point in my life, I shouldn't be tied down with a relationship because I am looking to further my career to new milestones and new places. But it still would be nice to share my success with someone....
It's not that I can't get a guy to hit on me, but to get a guy to commit is like trying to find a needle in a haystack!
I have great friends and I have a great family, but where is my Prince Charming? where is my David Beckham or my Tim Tebow?
I'm sure he's out there..... but I'm tired of looking.
Life is a huge mystery and puzzle. Each day, I lose another piece and don't know how the puzzle will ever fit together.... I can do almost anything I set my mind to, but finding Mr. Right is something I just can't do. (sorry, Thomas the Tank Engine)
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
Once again, I went for it....
On July 22, I auditioned for American Idol because it has always been a dream of mine to be on that show.
The audition day was a grueling process with 13 hours of waiting until my turn! When it was my turn, I chose to sing Sara Evan's "A Little Bit Stronger." I felt like I nailed it! I didn't choke!
Buttt, it was not what the judges were looking for and they told my group that we all had good voices, but just not what they wanted for the new season.
I wasn't bummed at the time because I was just ready to go home, but now I am somewhat bummed because the Idol experience would have been cool, but oh well....
I tried out not wanting to be the next "American Idol", I just wanted to give it a shot and know that I tried.
Everything in my life that I've ever wanted, I've always went for... it may not have always turned out the way I wanted, but I look back at it and think "you never let anything stop you." :)
The audition day was a grueling process with 13 hours of waiting until my turn! When it was my turn, I chose to sing Sara Evan's "A Little Bit Stronger." I felt like I nailed it! I didn't choke!
Buttt, it was not what the judges were looking for and they told my group that we all had good voices, but just not what they wanted for the new season.
I wasn't bummed at the time because I was just ready to go home, but now I am somewhat bummed because the Idol experience would have been cool, but oh well....
I tried out not wanting to be the next "American Idol", I just wanted to give it a shot and know that I tried.
Everything in my life that I've ever wanted, I've always went for... it may not have always turned out the way I wanted, but I look back at it and think "you never let anything stop you." :)
Monday, July 18, 2011
Update on life...
Since beginning work, it has been a wake-up call for me... things don't come easy. The first few weeks were hard because I realized that the real world was all I had to look forward to... no more homework assignments due, no more hanging out in the dorms.. college was over!
I have since realized that work can be a great thing and that I actually do provide a service to the community as a reporter. I enjoy my job (most days) and try to greet all the new people I meet with a friendly face.
I do miss my college days though, but I also feel reconnected to my friends, family and my community.
I do not let my job consume my entire life, which I always vowed never to do. I am still constantly working on my music, I have taken up dance lessons and I have taken on new roles at my church.
I hope that these steps that I'm taking are setting myself up for much success in this thing we call life. :)
I have since realized that work can be a great thing and that I actually do provide a service to the community as a reporter. I enjoy my job (most days) and try to greet all the new people I meet with a friendly face.
I do miss my college days though, but I also feel reconnected to my friends, family and my community.
I do not let my job consume my entire life, which I always vowed never to do. I am still constantly working on my music, I have taken up dance lessons and I have taken on new roles at my church.
I hope that these steps that I'm taking are setting myself up for much success in this thing we call life. :)
Monday, April 11, 2011
I got a job!!
My last blog talked about how my future was hanging in the balance and I didn't know what direction my life was headed in, but recently, all those doubts came to an end. I applied for a reporter position at my hometown newspaper where I interned in high school. The whole process worked like clock work. I applied one day, they called me to set up an interview the next day, I had the interview the following week, and they hired me five days later! I couldn't have been happier.
My dream has always been to be a reporter and that dream has come true! I will be working with the police beat, which is exciting. I think it'd be thrilling to cover a murder actually!
Since it is in my hometown, I will be moving back in with my parents until I get on my feet. I plan to live there for about a year to save up money for my own place.
My future for the next few years is planned, which is a huge relief!! :)
God has blessed me so much.
My dream has always been to be a reporter and that dream has come true! I will be working with the police beat, which is exciting. I think it'd be thrilling to cover a murder actually!
Since it is in my hometown, I will be moving back in with my parents until I get on my feet. I plan to live there for about a year to save up money for my own place.
My future for the next few years is planned, which is a huge relief!! :)
God has blessed me so much.
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Realizing that REAL LIFE is fast-approaching
I am currently applying for jobs, which is a stressful process. There are the thoughts of where do I want to live, what do I want to do, where is life going to take me? It is a rollercoaster ride! I've applied for jobs all around North Carolina and Virginia. It is nerve racking waiting for responses, but it will all be worth it in the end.
I thought I'd like the mystery of where I'll end up, but I don't. The not-knowing of where I'll be at this time next year is making me a little anxious. There have been tears involved when trying to explain to my parents that I have not applied for any jobs locally because there aren't any, which wasn't taken well by them because I am the baby.
I am having to grow up and move out into the real world faster than most. I am starting to really feel my age when I face these issues with fear.
I honestly feel like I am mature for my age, but will I be as mature when the rent payment is due, the light bill is due, my car won't start, or I mess up on the job? I have been skipping through life for 19 years without a care in the world, but now, I have cares in the world.
For 19 years, every decision has been mine and I have gotten myself to this point because of those decisions, but now, it is all left up to the employer and not me. The fact that I no longer control my own destiny is the part I hate the most.
I thought I'd like the mystery of where I'll end up, but I don't. The not-knowing of where I'll be at this time next year is making me a little anxious. There have been tears involved when trying to explain to my parents that I have not applied for any jobs locally because there aren't any, which wasn't taken well by them because I am the baby.
I am having to grow up and move out into the real world faster than most. I am starting to really feel my age when I face these issues with fear.
I honestly feel like I am mature for my age, but will I be as mature when the rent payment is due, the light bill is due, my car won't start, or I mess up on the job? I have been skipping through life for 19 years without a care in the world, but now, I have cares in the world.
For 19 years, every decision has been mine and I have gotten myself to this point because of those decisions, but now, it is all left up to the employer and not me. The fact that I no longer control my own destiny is the part I hate the most.
Friday, February 18, 2011
Open Mic Night/Debut
This Wednesday, I made my public debut as an artist. It was at an open mic night at Buffalo Wild Wings. I had sang before at events on campus, but with my largest crowd being only about 8. Therefore, with about 40 people in the bar, I was nervous. I began second-guessing my ability as an artist. I am comfortable with my singing, but it was the first time ever playing guitar in front of anyone other than my closest friends. I was also going to debut two original songs, so there was a lot for me to prove that night.
My name got called and I walked up, the nerves slightly went away. Once I started singing the first song, "Sparks Fly" by Taylor Swift, I felt in my element and I was loving it! I received great applause after each song. While singing my original songs, I could see people's feet tapping along to the beat, which made me feel awesome!
I have had so many people tell me that I should try out for American Idol or go to Nashville to pitch my songs, but that's just not in my priority list right now. I want to become a journalist first and just do small local gigs with my music on the side in the process. I would like to pursue my music someday though because it did feel good playing my music in front of an audience. By making my first debut, I had began chasing the dream of becoming a musician. :)
My name got called and I walked up, the nerves slightly went away. Once I started singing the first song, "Sparks Fly" by Taylor Swift, I felt in my element and I was loving it! I received great applause after each song. While singing my original songs, I could see people's feet tapping along to the beat, which made me feel awesome!
I have had so many people tell me that I should try out for American Idol or go to Nashville to pitch my songs, but that's just not in my priority list right now. I want to become a journalist first and just do small local gigs with my music on the side in the process. I would like to pursue my music someday though because it did feel good playing my music in front of an audience. By making my first debut, I had began chasing the dream of becoming a musician. :)
Friday, February 11, 2011
Dreaming of the Independent Lifestyle
Last year, I commuted to Averett every day, which became a hassle. I didn't like commuting because I felt left out of all of the fun things that all of the campus residents got to do. Also, I was tired of having a curfew at home. I felt that I should get on campus to experience the college lifestyle and to finally be an independent person.
My parents had already told me that they weren't going to pay for me to live on campus when I was living at home essentially free. After that, I heard of the RA position and that it paid for the room expense. Therefore, I applied for the position. I had my heart set on moving on campus and by not getting the job, I would have been upset, but I kept a positive attitude. The day came when the letters went out that said if you got the job or not. I opened my letter and I immediately saw a "Congratulations." I couldn't believe it! I got the job! I was going to get on campus!
My parents were not so thrilled. They had then realized that their baby girl was moving out of the house. The day I left, it was sad and I cried that morning when I woke up, but I knew it was part of growing up. Most college students move to go to college and it was time for me to do so as well.
I do not regret moving out. I love the independent lifestyle of washing my own clothes and making my own decisions. I felt like it was the best thing for me at this point in my life because I am about to graduate and move out into the work force and get my own place, and this experience has prepapred me for that. I honestly feel like it was one of the best decisions I ever made. It was something I had to do.
If I wouldn't have gotten the RA position, I wouldn't have been able to move, but everything worked out. Once again, I saw an opportunity, I went for it, and I achieved it. :)
My parents had already told me that they weren't going to pay for me to live on campus when I was living at home essentially free. After that, I heard of the RA position and that it paid for the room expense. Therefore, I applied for the position. I had my heart set on moving on campus and by not getting the job, I would have been upset, but I kept a positive attitude. The day came when the letters went out that said if you got the job or not. I opened my letter and I immediately saw a "Congratulations." I couldn't believe it! I got the job! I was going to get on campus!
My parents were not so thrilled. They had then realized that their baby girl was moving out of the house. The day I left, it was sad and I cried that morning when I woke up, but I knew it was part of growing up. Most college students move to go to college and it was time for me to do so as well.
I do not regret moving out. I love the independent lifestyle of washing my own clothes and making my own decisions. I felt like it was the best thing for me at this point in my life because I am about to graduate and move out into the work force and get my own place, and this experience has prepapred me for that. I honestly feel like it was one of the best decisions I ever made. It was something I had to do.
If I wouldn't have gotten the RA position, I wouldn't have been able to move, but everything worked out. Once again, I saw an opportunity, I went for it, and I achieved it. :)
Saturday, February 5, 2011
I chased a dream, didn't succeed, but I tried
My life revolves around chasing my dreams, and today, I chased another one. There was a casting call for a new segment on WXII12 news called "Girl Talk." That would have been my dream job to have my own segment! The judges were looking for someone with a great personality, which I figured I had. I waited in line for over two hours and finally got my chance in front of the judges.
I was bubbly and energetic, I thought it went well, but they sent me on my way.... I didn't make the cut. While it did hurt to get rejected, I know that I at least tried, and I also knew that over 500 people were auditioning. Therefore, I kept my head up and knew that it just wasn't meant to be. I'm sure it didn't work out because God has bigger plans for me. If I wouldn't have tried, I would have regretted it. I'm glad that I tried because I proved to myself that I go after what I want, and I was still able to be myself in an intimidating situation.
I was bubbly and energetic, I thought it went well, but they sent me on my way.... I didn't make the cut. While it did hurt to get rejected, I know that I at least tried, and I also knew that over 500 people were auditioning. Therefore, I kept my head up and knew that it just wasn't meant to be. I'm sure it didn't work out because God has bigger plans for me. If I wouldn't have tried, I would have regretted it. I'm glad that I tried because I proved to myself that I go after what I want, and I was still able to be myself in an intimidating situation.
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